I am so excited for Rowan that it usually makes my heart hurt. I am so excited that it gives me anxiety. This little voice in the back of my head calls me a fool and tells me to chill out on the excitement because you still have four months to go. I'm so excited … Continue reading Rowan.
in betweeners.
I am mostly a person who always has to have a plan. The more chaos or unstructured plans that come into my life the more overwhelmed I feel. Whether it's a set schedule for weekly meals, a do-list at work or an itinerary for an upcoming trip, I am usually always prepared. I function at … Continue reading in betweeners.
I had a stillbirth.
Here comes one of the hardest things I have ever written. Two Thousand Eighteen was a nightmare of a year for us. If I had been told how hard it was going to be prior to the start I would be in disbelief. My life was content before 2018, I thought I had learned all … Continue reading I had a stillbirth.
go hug your mama or baby mama.
To say the last 5 months have been crazy is an understatement. As I dive into my 6th month of being pregnant, things are becoming more and more like a plane going through severe turbulence with moments of relief when the plane levels out and then a peace of mind shines through the clouds because the flight only … Continue reading go hug your mama or baby mama.
the state of being no longer alive.
Once you lose someone close to you very unexpectedly your perspective on life and death changes drastically. At least this is the case for me. Death is inevitable and one day we will all know it. Suddenly the thought of death surrounds me at every corner. Anxiety keeps me awake and ravages my mind every time my husband … Continue reading the state of being no longer alive.
maybe i haven’t been completely honest.
Some days I am tired and overwhelmed. I find myself obsessively contemplating things out of my control. I find myself making naive assumptions. I often become self absorbed and selfish. I can be judgmental to those who are not so similar to myself. I get jealous of those whose lives seem better off then my … Continue reading maybe i haven’t been completely honest.
life is like a day of beautifully curated cocktails.. you never know what you’ll feel like tomorrow.
You might be thinking what the hell is this girl talking about? But I mean have you ever been in either situation? The first situation being, giving into the bar or resturants beautifully curated cocktail that just showed up at the table next to you. Or lets be honest you saw someone flaunt their pictures on … Continue reading life is like a day of beautifully curated cocktails.. you never know what you’ll feel like tomorrow.
