It has been months since I've felt as carefree as I once had. I came out of 2017 high off life. I've written about it time and time again, about the encroaching feeling that life hasn't been what I wanted it to be since the year started. Then I had another weekend where I got … Continue reading young, wild & free.
tired & uninspired.
Lately I have been pretty uninspired to write much of anything. I feel like anything I want to get out of my head is mostly negative. I hate negative energy, don't want to be putting out those vibes. I know I've written about it over and over again, but this is a really rough season in … Continue reading tired & uninspired.
maybe.
As much as I don't want it to, waiting for my time to become a mom because the universe has its own schedule-- is pretty much all consuming. I've hoped to not give it much thought, ride the waves and let it flow until my body is ready for the opportunity to become a mom. Easier … Continue reading maybe.
badass babes.
Up until this week I was in a dark lull. They don't really tell you how draining it can be to try for a baby unsuccessfully and to keep trying. I've spent the last 5 months wondering what the heck I am doing. This isn't a normal state of mind for me. Usually there is … Continue reading badass babes.
intermittent social media detoxing.
I've been doing this thing where I delete my Instagram app for a couple days at a time to give myself a break from aimlessly scrolling through other peoples lives. I deleted my Snapchat app permanently and I only use my Facebook for our community watch page. I take breaks during the week. On the … Continue reading intermittent social media detoxing.
like mother. like daughter.
I mostly grew up thinking to myself that I didn't want to be anything like my parents. And yeah that still rings pretty much true in my life. Up until the past few months when I looked at my mom I saw the opposite of myself. I held a lot of resentment towards her because … Continue reading like mother. like daughter.
winter has come and gone. good riddance.
It's the first day of Spring! It's the first day of Spring! Winter was definitely not my season. I am already not a fan of the winter #californiagirl -- this year basically just brought on even more despise. So, I am counting on this next season to bring new growth and bravery into my world. I've been … Continue reading winter has come and gone. good riddance.
i’ll be okay.
It kind of feels like I faked the past 6 weeks. You go from one day behaving as a pregnant lady and then the next day you're able to go back to drinking, eating poke bowls, and not having to stop what your doing every hour to hold back the gags of nausea from your … Continue reading i’ll be okay.
maybe timing isn’t everything.
There is no baby. Kelly, there is no baby. I spent my 3 day weekend home alone, repeating this mantra to myself. Unless you want to count my two dogs as being there for me. President's weekend was my husband's family and close group of friends 20th annual trip to the desert. I've only been around since … Continue reading maybe timing isn’t everything.
the stigmas that come with marriage.
So, the other day at work as one of my young female co-workers was leaving the building after a long work day she said, "Got to go to the grocery, then cook, then go to the gym. Ha, it's like I'm a wife of something". What the fuck is that supposed to mean, bitch? Initially this kind … Continue reading the stigmas that come with marriage.
the honest babe. 