It has been months since I’ve felt as carefree as I once had. I came out of 2017 high off life. I’ve written about it time and time again, about the encroaching feeling that life hasn’t been what I wanted it to be since the year started.
Then I had another weekend where I got to be carefree and completely immerse myself in the joys that my life has to offer. Being an adult where I get to make my own decisions, a large body of water, three and a half days off of work, sunshine, boating, alcohol, friends and family.
As the year had began —I felt as though I would never be as carefree as I once was. As emotions poured in and hope was lost. As the all consuming thoughts and worries felt like they had settled in to stay. I finally got a taste of my freedom back. I finally got the notion that timing is back on schedule. That I am allowed to enjoy the moments like these, because yes, one day they may be gone for good.
As the sun set on the water of our final full day of fun in Lake Havasu Arizona, the water warmed to bath temperature, we pulled into a deserted cove across from our final destination– we blasted music, we danced, we swam and we enjoyed our freedom that we often take for granted. We enjoyed the company surrounding us and we lived in the moment. Being fortunate to take a break from every day life– the things that worry and restrict your ability to be content– is good for your soul.
Feeling like myself again is being met with rejoice and reassurance. I head into June, into Summer– ready to try again. Ready to for what is next. Whether it is what I hope for or maybe what I am not hoping for but at least I am headed out into the halfway year mark with a different more positive attitude about 2018.
Sometimes everything aligns, we get to feel the fruits of labor and we get to be alive. Life is good.