You might be thinking what the hell is this girl talking about? But I mean have you ever been in either situation?
The first situation being, giving into the bar or resturants beautifully curated cocktail that just showed up at the table next to you. Or lets be honest you saw someone flaunt their pictures on social media. You drink one, or maybe you drink so many you lose count. It happens to the best of us. The day continues. It was a good time. You took some cute photos to prove you know how to have fun too. Hopefully you don’t regret any decisions. Although, you clearly spent to much money. These drinks always come with a high price tag. You wake up the next morning. It is a gamble, sometimes the hang over is unreal and sometimes it is barely there. Either you’re gonna get up and do what you had planned for the day or you’re gonna lay around in your PJs while you intermidently Nap and Netflix & Chill. Am I right?
Now the second situation is actual life. Some days are harder than others. One day you are laughing until you cry. You’re vibin’ with those around you. You’ve mastered as they say, living in the moment. I still don’t know who they are. Your ultimate life karma is doin’ right by you. Then you wake up tomorrow and your dark friend anxiety is back. The feeling of impending doom. Self doubt is paying you a visit. I think even if you don’t suffer from anxiety per se, there are still other things that come tomorrow that lead you to not know how you are going to feel. I won’t get into that, you know what your thing is. Something changes your mood. We are only human. This world is full of crazyness and uncertainty. Adulting is hard, Am I Right?
Let me bring it all together. The whole reason I am even writing about this today is because, in general, I love my life. I live in a nice area. I have a swell husband. My family cares about me. I’ve never suffered from severe health issues. I have a lot of friends. My job is decent. I don’t feel like anything is really missing. I am not rubbing it all in your face. I am just very grateful for the life that I live. I worked hard for this life. I love it. BUT, I STILL HAVE DAYS WHERE I WAKE UP AND I DON’T WANT TO DO IT ANYMORE. Yes, I am yelling.
Some times I wake up tomorrow and I don’t know how I am going to make it through the day. I want someone else to navigate my finances and bills. I want someone else to decide whats for dinner. I want someone else to decide if having kids is the right decision or not. I want the dogs to follow someone else. I want someone else to eat healthy for me and run those miles to make sure I stay in shape. Sometimes even though I love my life, I just don’t want to do it anymore.
Here is the picture that inspired this analogy and post. In case you are still thinking I am crazy. A recent beautifully curated cocktails I enjoyed with my husband and friends from Peltzer Winery. I joined their wine club this year and I highly reccomend it. Wine not?